Hope

To my sweet baby:

"I carried you beneath my heart for three months... now I will carry you in my heart. Thank you for giving me hope."

So as it turns out I took another impromptu month long hiatus from blogging. I was hoping my luck was turning around when tragedy struck again. My heart is broken and I needed to take time to heal and try to begin to move forward.

Just as I was going into the second trimester I lost my baby due to IC which I believe was a result of my surgeries this past Fall.


This sonogram photo that was taken the day before I lost my sweet pea.




There are blessings in all of this sadness. After my surgeries my husband and I were finally going to move on with life, finally accepting that due to Unexplained Infertility we would not have any more children. Then this sweet little baby came along and gave us hope.

I am grateful that I was given the opportunity to carry a child again, even if it was only for a short time.

And the biggest blessing of all is becoming even closer as a family. After losing the baby I was broken. It was my husband who came and picked up all of the pieces of my heart and put me back together. I feel closer to him than ever before.

The kids have been amazing and have inspired me to have the same simple trust that God has a plan for us.
We told the kids that the baby left my tummy and went back to Heaven. And in a sweet, simple way they "hope the baby comes back soon."

So do I!

Happy New Year

Happy New Year!!!

So, 2011 is looking like its going to be a great year.

In June I am going to have a mini album of mine published in the Scrapbook Trends annual Mini Album Idea Book. I am so excited about this. I find this publication to be a major source of inspiration and I am thrilled that I am going to be a part of it.

There is more exciting news. We are going to have a baby!



I am just beside myself thrilled about this new little addition. We told the kids on Christmas Eve and they are super excited. We shared the news with our families over the holidays and everyone was quite surprised after everything I went through last Fall. They are all so happy about this new little one.

We told our friends and extended family in a fun way too! We made a Christmas card that had three different spaces for photos. We put a photo of Aubrey on one side, a photo of Cullen on the other and the sonogram picture in the center. The message read:

May your New Year be filled with blessings... Ours will be!
Love,
Megan, Rob, Aubrey, Cullen
and Baby (due July 17, 2011)

Happy 1-1-11 everyone!